Monday, November 17, 2014
For Good Update: An Emotional Weekend
My last post was all about me finding out that my employer has already found a replacement. This post is all about how I spent my weekend after finding out that I am really going home for good soon.
After crying on and off the night before, I dragged myself to my usual morning run, but just ended up running 2.50 Miles than the usual 7 Miles. My heart was heavy. I was still crying on and off! I didn't even listen to my usual favorite podcasts. I just think, and thinking was all I did. Gosh, I will surely miss my mga alaga! I was so sad, my appetite was even affected! I was darn hungry, but I don't feel like eating. I fried some yummy tilapia and I forced myself to eat.
I spent my Saturday afternoon walking. Just walking till I developed blisters on my left foot (remember, I blogged about my new shoes? Still breaking it in). I must have walked for 4 hours, internalizing everything, enjoying the balmy weather, uttering how I should take all the sights in so it'll register into my memory bank. I also looked for goodbye gifts for my employer. What can I give to someone who has everything?
Sunday was much better than Saturday. I get teary-eyed here and there but not as much as the other day. I ran for 6 Miles, not the usual 7 Miles because my blisters started to hurt.
I already accepted the fact that I will be leaving very soon, that I won't be a part of my alagas' lives. They will always be a part of me. They taught me a lesson I will never forget. My boss also taught me a lesson that no matter how far you've come in life, you can't treat people shit just because they are lower than you. As what Sirius Black said, "If you want to know what a man's like, take a good look at how he treat his inferiors, not his equals."
Hey, it's my last week of work. It will be an emotional week for me as I say goodbye to all the people who touched my life. They might forget about me, but they will always be a part of me.