I’m always open to my struggles, just so my readers know that life ain’t perfect for me here in the Philippines.
Is it me or am I just not your typical Filipino? (Living alone with two dogs, not wanting to settle down and don't want to have contact with my family. SO NOT FILIPINO, right? )
Here are my reasons for not wanting to get in touch with my family, both immediate and extended. ( Take note "not wanting" is used here, though I still "reluctantly" meet with them.) :
- I want to hang out with my cousins and aunts, but they expect me to pay for everything.
On several occasions, I invited my aunts just to hang out and treat them to a special restaurant, nag dala pa naman ng ibang tao. Ugh, I wanted to have intimate conversation sana. May time for big family gathering and may time din for intimate, one-on-one conversations.
Note:I don't have the balls to say "KKB tayo". I should, right? Though I always treat my aunts, but I don't want to treat my cousins. May trabaho naman sila eh.
- I want to call my Lola, but she always guilt-tripping me to forgive my evil brother or to get married. La, the wound is still fresh. Someday, I will be able to forgive but not now.
- I want to call my mother often, but all she do is complain and ask for more money.
- I want to hang out with my younger brother even more, but I can sense that he would rather do something than hang out with his ate whom she never even grow up with.
Though I have good relationship with my second eldest brother. He lives in Taiwan now but we constantly contact each other via Viber. He even sent me an Adidas Superstar for my birthday! I felt super kilig! So that’s how it feels like when a family member gives you something from abroad! Hahah!
I know, family is important but I think I have the most dysfunctional family in the Philippines. Dogs won't betray us, but people do.